It started with me going on my "myspace" to find a certain quote a friend of mine said, when we starting talking again....but I didn't get past a few old conversations of a past well.......irritation that I some how managed to keep locked in my heart.....if that makes sense.....and what I read was this.......
"your Vocabulary is something phenomenal at times......guys are 'jerks' and really dumb when it comes to the opposite sex and COMPLETELY OBLIVIOUS to other girls advances which inevitably ends up in disaster and trying to clean up after the mess is just ridicules but necessary."
and he responded with
"Life is crazy, love... well, love is just ridiculously stupid... but like you said, 'necessary'! "
I didn't like cleaning up after the disaster, and mind you what I read was long before the whole relationship ended. But I knew it, I knew that it was going to happen.....and I am a better person for it, not because I am better then he is, because trust me there were faults on my part too, but because it allowed me to see a little bit more how desperate I am in need of Christ, and how much more growing I need to do before I can give of myself in that manor.
Lessons, sometimes they bite......but I'm willing to learn.....you get so much out of it, if you allow yourself to see the reward.
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