Its been so long since I've wrote anything on this, so long that I've thought about deleting it....so much has happened with in these past two years, even within this past year. I don't know who I am, and when I look back I see who I was shapping into and though there were aspects that I didn't like, I still long for some of the things I was shapping into. For example, I love making people smile, laughing ....having my mind busy on writing stories, or how I could encourage a friend that day, or....my mind is so much in a daze right now I don't know where to start...


I want to go back but I don't think He will forgive me.....I want to rest in Him again and just not think about anything,....I want my heart back! no.....I want Him to have my heart...and hide it so deep that NO ONE will EVER find it again!