I'd Rather...

Choices.... We all make them....But I do whole hardly believe that its what we LEARN in those choices that define who we are....and if the choices we make are based on whether we have God in our lives.... And I have to be honest with you, sometimes we don't make the brightest choices, they can be down right stupid! We end up deeply questioning who we are, who we are becoming. We start to freak out at the choice we made was one of the "stupid" choices...we start to focus on the addictions, sins and failures that plague our lives.

So when the choices I make begin to show me who I am starting to become and I don't like the outcome, I am able to begin to make a conscious decision to turn from my ways and CHOSE Grace that is offered. Though I know that my God is a God of righteousness that he asks of true repentance I know that I am always welcomed back into the arms of my Father.

I rather like the fact that God gave us choice as an option. I like the fact that I make bad choices and mess up...for several reasons......

For one I am able to see that I am a sinner in desperate need of a Savior. Secondly I am able to remain humble and remain in a constant state of knowing that I am a needy person. A daughter who needs the the constant care giving of a Father who gave His all for her. In making bad choices I expect my Father to discipline his children, but within that discipline I become a better person, a wiser daughter.
Lastly I can see the person I am becoming and to be honest with you I rather know who I don't want to become then not knowing what I want to become.

Though this may seem like a backwards thought, I feel that my messy and shameful choices gives me a deep thirst and knowledge that Christ needs to be the center of my life, constantly reminding me that every moment is a battle for my soul. That He is fighting, that there is sin and no way of escaping it until the day of His glorious return. He also reminds me that though I am a sinner, the furthest away from being pure that I can rest in the hope that He has the Victory...He had it all a long, because of the great love He has for His Children.


Choices..... We all have to make them, and if we make wrong choices, be sure to recieve the lessons and consequences, but then move forward in Grace, being grateful for the gift of Godly wisdom- knowing a little bit more of who you do and don't want to become.