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I feel a little more @ peace- god doesn’t seem non-existent any more - and much more closer then id imagined. When I wanted to quit- scrap the whole story - he pleaded with me to read more and I do have to admit it has been pretty interesting- b was right- he spent so much time writing the story- he constantly is asking me - read more it gets better I promise!

Chapter by chapter.....comes pain and agony. Sometimes I wonder if I even deserve the Joy He wants me to have. And yet there are many more chapters of Joy, excitement and wonder…..The author suggest that I not concentrate on the pain and agony as a enemy, but as stepping stones….of a “how to not” chapters and though hard to get through these chapters…..I will be stronger because of them.

Someone once told me that their relationship with God was much different then mine. They said that, in everything I do, no matter what happens....I ALWAYS turn back to God....ALWAYS....

I guess its second nature for me....to turn back to the one thing that has been so constant in my life....what words of reassurance...that though there are times, days in which I serve a God that seems to be non-existent to me......or at least a God that seem so far away........He reminds me of how close to me HE REALLY IS!

KEEP READING....IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE!